Distinguishing videos with gestures | Ramblin' & Amblin' | Nov 1, 2026

I'm trying to think of a way to make it so that way I can tell the difference between different videos. I would sometimes come out on these walks and record a bunch of different videos all at once and it'd be hard to figure out which one I was talking about what on. So give in a shot of a little hand gesture, see what that does. It's easier to differentiate videos.

This is the second video then. Well technically third because I did a test video. It was just test, test, test, test, kind of message. There's a thing I struggled with is at one time I was at a ELT and was out with one of my colleagues and uh you know maybe in a different circumstance we'd be friends but because of just how corporations you know it's when you're at a certain level it's competition even if you're in cooperation and uh I I was naive I thought we all could work it out find a way to coexist but uh budgets are finite and it's sometimes you're scrabbling over the the same attention the same budget and that has its own costs but I'm out with this colleague and we're having a good time I'm just relaxing being silly I I you know yes there was alcohol involved but it wasn't that bad uh I just was down in a place where I never seen a stork on a dock before and I uh or pelican excuse me and uh I wanted to get closer to it to see it and I uh I fell off of the little ledge now again I like I said there's there's a little bit of alcohol it wasn't that bad uh but I I wasn't embarrassed by it and I said oh my gosh and I was laughing uh because I fell down into a bush just trying to see this pelican and all the pelican did was just at me uh so it's kind of funny uh but I'm telling the story back you know we're back at the bar and one of the older uh colleagues he's like he's got his arms crossed and like almost a protective way you know because you can tell he's kind of uh self- conscious with his own colleagues too and he's laughing and he's I believe this was a sincere comment um he's like you're just I can't remember exactly what he said but I just couldn't he was something that affected like you just accept things and I was like yeah it was just funny it wasn't that big of a deal but I forgot when you're at a certain level the entire game is uh what you project what you what you what you present your face your mask your your um safe identity the one that is approved the one that is uh v etted you have to protect yourself from ever looking silly or being vulnerable or laughing that you just wanted to see the pelican I don't care how old I am I wanted to see a pelican I I didn't think I'd ever be in that place again to see a pel ican just chilling so I got closed and I slipped and I fell but I saw the pelican and it made a noise um it responded to me it's that bad feels like it when conformity is safety at least the perception of safety maybe at a certain level but uh I think the current markets uh prove that there really is no safety unless you're really well connected but that kind of is uh not my situation um for my own fault or for my circumstance like it's beyond my control both combination this grandpa simpson a little bit of one said a little bit of column a a little bit of column b but I wouldn't have done uktastic if I didn't make myself vulnerable I wouldn't have done um a user group or presented at a conference or created the website for chicago code camp because that's what I wanted to to be known for I wanted to be known for not just being um now this wasn't my conscious intention when I was starting out but just being known for being somebody's employee although I did value certain companies I've worked with more than others as far as like prestige and um that what they represented for me and in particular I reference um you know like obtiva and coupons um during the hyper growth phase but um that very same conference that I was um I fell down looking at a penguin it was the very same conference where uh I mean not conference but ELT where a motivational speaker came in and talked about authenticity and being your authentic self what a crock what a crock you get to do that when you're on top you don't get to do that when you're on the bottom unless you are going to make the bottom your top and how many people have been to the bottom and found a way to make it a top again I don't know do I ever think I'm going to be rich monetarily probably not am I probably going to die in my chair working probably the way things are going but my chair might be a different chair doing a different job maybe it can be better I like what I do but it's changed it's changed so many times and that's that's the hardest thing is uh how do you remain authentic or how do you remain inauthentic when the game keeps changing how do they how like maybe that's why I feel like I'm going crazy not because I'm inauthentic I am who I am but every time I try not to be who I am I just get all confused I can't like I am I am capable of lying I just don't do it as a practice because I'm bad at keeping it all straight I am not great at remembering details of the stuff that I'm telling the truth about but it's a whole lot easier to look up the truth and and validate it and verify it than it is to uh keep a whole bunch of lies straight to a whole bunch of people so how do the people that are that way are carrying different personas for or different contexts for different people in different groups maybe it's why certain people like to keep people like me outside because I break narratives I don't know the narrative they have but they like to keep the people close that do know the narratives and know how to stay on script I just want to just do what I think is the right thing and I shouldn't have to hide that and the fact that hiding intentions is is the first sign that you're not really telling the truth you know and again I'm not unable to lie do I have lies I've held in long enough yeah but now man buddy I just saw a guy out here not cool not cool you're just up you're just up here buddy I'm gonna take that this is pretty annoying um I saw the guy he dropped that but um passed by him earlier or if the lie is what I'm telling myself that I am this way you know and then I think I'm being authentic but maybe that itself is so deep that it's a lie that it's uh I can't tell the truth difference from the truth you know now we're into the uh batman you know was it Bruce Wayne there was a batman um you know I don't know but authenticity is subjective and it isn't about necessarily for me proving some kind of point but just if I was smarter maybe I could be a better life but I'm not and so I I try to spend my or try not to spend the energy on that because it's too hard I don't know again think of this stuff as just a vlog rambling and ambling all right thanks bye